May 2012
18 posts
Kissing you is like biting into pizza.
Holding you is like embracing everything I love.
You light up my world of darkness and you don’t even have to try.
Your smile is the most prettiest thing in the world.
Your soul is good.
There are times when were together and we laugh more than necessary.
It’s because we know just how ridiculously happy we make one another.
We’ve been...
Thankful.
So things are normalized and stable. I hope things remain the way they are :)
i have hope, i do.
i have faith, and love.
my passion may be depleated, but i ask that you stay by side until it returns.
i’m so self involved right now.
the plan
incorporate Gavin into every part of my plan
improve relationships with people
get a handle on my emotions
get in shape
meet extraordinary people this summer at SMDEP
get a car
make dean’s list every semester here out
hang with good influences
make friends with people i can be myself around
graduate from Texas State
be manager at a clothing store
learn a trade
get accepted into...
the pain is what lets me know i'm still alive, but...
i just want to put it all out there and chip away at the pain. There are a lot of things in the world i hate. Things that can be changed, some that cannot. There are people in this world i crave love and attention from. My mom and my dad. My boyfriend. Maybe even my cat. I’m a little paranoid now…what if everything is fake. What if everything is a lie…what if people just put with...
And this is my life..
My life is like a roller coaster, you don’t wanna strap in and stay for this ride. Every possible thing that could go wrong just might. I’m treading on thin ice. Every tear drop is a rainfall. It’s a little death. I’m sorry you can’t/won’t fight for me. Why can’t you? There are ways. There is always something that can be done. I just want you to stand up...
His girl, Her man
He gives me that innocent smile.
A look on my face that let’s you know I know nothing about the world and its cruelties.
He gives me a road block to reason.
Room to be dumb.
To act on instinct and without thinking.
My guard has completely sunk.
His heart is full of love, his mind full of dreams.
He’s so dedicated to me.
He cherishes what I don’t.
He sees what I overlook....
So here we are. Doing this painful, hurtful jig.
Why, because?
It’s me you see.
I started on this painful thing of me not being my best for him.
I’m in shock of it all.
I said I just wanted to be sure.
I just needed to clarify.
Now I’m making him die inside.
He’s hurting a lot, like I broke things off.
But I haven’t.
I was hurting a lot last night like I broke...
My proposal, my ode to you.
I want my love, I need him here.
If ever I were to lose him my life would be dead.
I took him for granted, didn’t thank God when things were good, just prayed when things got bad.
I’ve know him since ‘07 and he’s been there ever since.
Sometimes he’d go overlooked like a four leaf clover in a sea of three leaves.
But a ray of light pointed him out, an epiphany is...
Love can blind you.
It can blind you from the one you love, it can make you lose sight of the dearness of that one you love.
Love can make you undermine all the things you and that person share. It can ruin things forever….
Love can open your eyes.
It can can make you see the one you love, it can make appreciate all that they are and chose to be for you.
Love can cause you to glorify...
Just a thought.
Sometimes we do the dumbest things, why?
Shit if i know, but yet they are done.
Things that can’t be taken back.
Sometime you’re hurting so much on the inside, or just so angry that words aren’t always the answer.
That coddling must cease to exist.
That drastic measures must take place.
So at that point ignoring you and basically kicking you out of my house is the answer.
...
Dear Andréa,
You know exactly what to say all the time. Every second of the day. It’s quite wonderful. You’re a breath of fresh air to everyone you surround yourself by.
A dollar and a dream but it don't make sense.
&i got a lot of dreams but I guess I’m broke due to that. Doesn’t make a lot of sense to throw away so much money to have to work for more and then some. So why am I doing that? People see the five minutes of fame the end of the game but I see it as a taste of capabilities.
My life sucks, how bout yours?
I’m a bitch.
No, I don’t know if i can blame it on anything other than me.
I’m going crazy being alone.
I don’t like seeing the floor plus walls of this place.
Getting the short, stupid messages.
Being happy-sad-mad all at once.
This takes a toll on a woman.
Why can’t i just get what i want when i want it how i want it and from who?
It’s not normal that...
Guess its not meant to be. Guess you don’t always wanna talk to me.
You see the way I act and it must make you wonder if I’m actually happy. Sometimes I wonder why I always have to be so drab, it makes me a little sad. My feelings are something I have too much of. Constantly. It makes me sick of being me.
Sometimes life gives you lemons when all you want is oranges. Sometimes life kicks you down when all you want to do is fly. Sometimes love takes you places that you’d never ever go on your own. You see things, meet people, take in the scenery. Love is all about caring and wanting what’s best. Happiness, good health, nice manners. I want for you to succeed at everything God blesses you...
